it is so fucking hard to unlearn the fat hatred and fat shaming bullshit. i still uphold thinness as privilege and i still want to be thin everyday. it makes my blog and beliefs look like a sham. how am truly for equality when i want to be thin and think being thin will somehow make my life better? every time i look on the scale and i gain i hate myself. been on a four month binge eating so much chocolate and sugary food and carbs that i’ve gained like 30lbs and i really hate. everytime i read a quote or a post on fatphobia and see that i uphold those beliefs for myself internally i hate myself.

1. sugahwaatah said: when you live in this society, its hard-especially for women- to not want to conform. I know i’ll be treated better thinner and i have no interest in staying this weight
2. in-ternal posted this